Drowning soul
· Life is like a pain;
once again you push me to die in a drain.
· Tears are dear ;
nothing is love but merely a fear.
· Silent is an ornament ;
you pierced my soul in segments,
· You gave me a new birth as your own part,
for a new aghast as it’s my destiny dart.
· My drying tears like a dying tree;
now i found nothing but a little piece of capree.
· I am so bad as much as a pain,
now my blood also nothing but onus me like a vain.
· Dying on a chair paralysed in fears ;
nothing but you strike the glass yell “Dear CHEARS”
· My life is nothing ever last to crib,
you gave me my second life but with a drip.
· Staring at the stars with my open scars and all I left with dry silent tears,
Like a soared puppy licking the feet of cruel statue and still rolling tears telling him to fears.
· With every Ruthless blow it steals the moisture and left my lips like a Cray,
For my whole life I craved for bit of happiness as its being a mirage and all I left to stray.
· I am thirst on the bank of sea since ages,
and still left thirsty because of my sight in salty water and its cages.
· You have soared your name as its bliss on my soul,
as it bleeding so beautifully and now i believe nothing but take it as a beauty mole.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
The Craving Truth
MY LOST KITE’s…………….· My World of relations is left and it’s spinning around,
like a thread leave the spinning top on the ground.
· The season of autumns on the frown,
and I am the gardener collecting petals as they seem brown.
· The thread has been cut from the kite,
and I am running behind before it moves out of sight.
· Air is windy and as it’s august in the town,
and I am Hiding from this moment as the lady taking care of her windy gown.
· I am the convict of my own dreams,
as Fish Gets in a trap in Net but without its Deafening screams.
· Loved for a while like in the mud a sown seed,
and my dreams massacred, as you were summer and I was in my last greed.
· The clown gave his entity and gave its name,
and you garland his insanity as he has always been in a frame.
· I was in full of pace to take you in my heart of ferry,
Now I am aghast coz you tumble at my embrace,
but, I did give you your excuses it might be coz of your open shoelaces and I left with my tearful sorry.
· Every second I lost in dilemma for a name on the cell,
Every day getting optimistic like a mother praying for his dead son on a doorbell.
· Relations are many but still me asking for a penny,
now the whole world stands but I am in quest of love, in likes of my granny.
· Missing you in real had tried a lot to wipe you out,
and I end up every day to be soared in this bout.
like a thread leave the spinning top on the ground.
· The season of autumns on the frown,
and I am the gardener collecting petals as they seem brown.
· The thread has been cut from the kite,
and I am running behind before it moves out of sight.
· Air is windy and as it’s august in the town,
and I am Hiding from this moment as the lady taking care of her windy gown.
· I am the convict of my own dreams,
as Fish Gets in a trap in Net but without its Deafening screams.
· Loved for a while like in the mud a sown seed,
and my dreams massacred, as you were summer and I was in my last greed.
· The clown gave his entity and gave its name,
and you garland his insanity as he has always been in a frame.
· I was in full of pace to take you in my heart of ferry,
Now I am aghast coz you tumble at my embrace,
but, I did give you your excuses it might be coz of your open shoelaces and I left with my tearful sorry.
· Every second I lost in dilemma for a name on the cell,
Every day getting optimistic like a mother praying for his dead son on a doorbell.
· Relations are many but still me asking for a penny,
now the whole world stands but I am in quest of love, in likes of my granny.
· Missing you in real had tried a lot to wipe you out,
and I end up every day to be soared in this bout.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
A NEVER ENDED WAR.............
Hi ,
Nothing Much to write on but still craving for it, that’s why most of time came out with the thoughts to write on but end up only visit my page and move on...
It’s since after long time yesterday only me and my friend both manage to talk with each other , I really felt like as if I can cry with all my soul while hugging her ,
Well at last I came out with some constructive thought so going to join GRE classes from 1st of April. And for sure move out of this nerd place up to 2011, I just want to drain myself in something so that I don’t have even single second to think of how to breathe in even.......
My job is going on well but somewhere back in mind I still feel like as I am not ready for this , as still my heart throbs like a college guy, ...........
Hope so soon I will get back to it,
Yesterday I had talk with my lovely friend teddy, well LOL she and me almost facing the same type of tremors as both are betrayed, only difference is this she manage to get over and me still striving for it,
well there was an time when I use to get angry on her stupid thoughts ,about what all she had been in and now god facilitate her with this chance on me hehehehe.
Dear just tell me ones did I have ever done anything wrong to you, why you spoke all this for me........just answer your self...
Since long time I still remember that 17th of august and since that time only I had tried up to my level best and gone through with almost everything to make my self understand about the truth.........
But now I am really tired of it and just want to wipe out my memories and my brain .............
I am trying to have great will than my desire.........
But still couldn’t find the way to get out of it,
Plzzzz gods help me to forget her.............soon come up with a poem....
there are lot many things which i want to speak and i want to yell but then i dont know why i just manage to remain silence.....
Nothing Much to write on but still craving for it, that’s why most of time came out with the thoughts to write on but end up only visit my page and move on...
It’s since after long time yesterday only me and my friend both manage to talk with each other , I really felt like as if I can cry with all my soul while hugging her ,
Well at last I came out with some constructive thought so going to join GRE classes from 1st of April. And for sure move out of this nerd place up to 2011, I just want to drain myself in something so that I don’t have even single second to think of how to breathe in even.......
My job is going on well but somewhere back in mind I still feel like as I am not ready for this , as still my heart throbs like a college guy, ...........
Hope so soon I will get back to it,
Yesterday I had talk with my lovely friend teddy, well LOL she and me almost facing the same type of tremors as both are betrayed, only difference is this she manage to get over and me still striving for it,
well there was an time when I use to get angry on her stupid thoughts ,about what all she had been in and now god facilitate her with this chance on me hehehehe.
Dear just tell me ones did I have ever done anything wrong to you, why you spoke all this for me........just answer your self...
Since long time I still remember that 17th of august and since that time only I had tried up to my level best and gone through with almost everything to make my self understand about the truth.........
But now I am really tired of it and just want to wipe out my memories and my brain .............
I am trying to have great will than my desire.........
But still couldn’t find the way to get out of it,
Plzzzz gods help me to forget her.............soon come up with a poem....
there are lot many things which i want to speak and i want to yell but then i dont know why i just manage to remain silence.....
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Between the sheets……
• Some time my heart grows,
seems like my tears flows……
• Need a hand to take me in,
but just finding a shadow to who scares me like a sin..
• You always telling me to share myself for my own help,
and I yelled with my sewed lips to cry for and a drop to gulp.
• Me crying day and night like a baby for a hand,
but you shattered my faith like a fish on a sand.
• It’s so drizzle hard and my head is down,
this is a trick by the god to remove the mask of this clown.
• Its always painted smiley on face of this clown,
its is as her tears drooping from her glittering gown..
• Setting sun helping the birds to get back to nest,
and me finding a reason to not to get feared within my zest.
• I am inside the room and asking for bit of light,
and you closed the casket with far sky and its flight.
• You always been running and I am with my denial Creep,
as it’s your beautiful nap before my final sleep.
• Crying Chirps make you amuse and a reason to rise,
but you never know what she has given and how hard she priced.
• I yell I fell I gulp I soars I and ditch me to my new core,
my stray to my soars to frill to thrill to adores and to destined to end shore…….
Date: 09th Mar.2010
• Some time my heart grows,
seems like my tears flows……
• Need a hand to take me in,
but just finding a shadow to who scares me like a sin..
• You always telling me to share myself for my own help,
and I yelled with my sewed lips to cry for and a drop to gulp.
• Me crying day and night like a baby for a hand,
but you shattered my faith like a fish on a sand.
• It’s so drizzle hard and my head is down,
this is a trick by the god to remove the mask of this clown.
• Its always painted smiley on face of this clown,
its is as her tears drooping from her glittering gown..
• Setting sun helping the birds to get back to nest,
and me finding a reason to not to get feared within my zest.
• I am inside the room and asking for bit of light,
and you closed the casket with far sky and its flight.
• You always been running and I am with my denial Creep,
as it’s your beautiful nap before my final sleep.
• Crying Chirps make you amuse and a reason to rise,
but you never know what she has given and how hard she priced.
• I yell I fell I gulp I soars I and ditch me to my new core,
my stray to my soars to frill to thrill to adores and to destined to end shore…….
Date: 09th Mar.2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Insane sinner
Insane sinner
Hi to you all , some time wispering thoughts across my mind and take the form of tumbeling sound.....is there is any one who can hear it and bearit.....
@ As the fog of pain, make layer of dew of vain,
As the darkness getting dense, fog getting immense.
@ Drops are on the pane, marking its place to get rid of this beautiful stain,
While drowning they keep on asking, what is sin of this insane,
@ Moving drops asking for the way to shed in,
as river asking the sea please give me the way to get in,
@ Drops are still salty,
as me sinner asking to himself why always is it so...is that my love is faulty,
@Still I m deaf to hear my dump heart,
Give me the reason to change my soul as the way I do change my shirt.
@I heard that love is life and it grows and getting denser, then why it kills as it’s become a cancer,
I love you a lot but, I wish I can get the answer,
@Whom I am I to asking for love of my soul,
but this also seems like as I am absconding from my own role.
@I wish to write on and on,
but some one yelled…… you insane, please hold on,
@Still I am waiting ……..but now faith of belief is tumbling in tornado of reality,
as life asking for the proofs of getting love in its brutality,
@ Still eyes feared to look at clock, and dried drops in quest to its destiny,
by having the moisture for its life in my pain and insanity,
@Some one smiley by having smile on your face,
So keep on smiling with out asking a reason, but in grace.
@you asking me to attire a fakeness but with grace,
So I am kept on amusing, without asking for a reason or its trace.
Thanks to this blank paper who hearted my pain, with out asking its brain.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I am back guys..............
Hi guys
Its since long time not to write here its like i was missing something from my own self....
well now the days occupied with my projects.
so as the time is short and words are too long...so I decided to put it on a rhythmic song....
$ On 13 th of Jan I came back to my home.
$ while on board got a teddy bear who called to be my friend.
$ She is the person who worry about me even more than my own mom lol.....
$ Got the job at Common wealth games 2010 delhi ( organizing committee)
$ Salary is handsome and package seems quite pretty.
$ Got to know the reality about my past....all thanks to bacha....
$ Got the post of project officer in WORLD CUP HOCKEY 2010 yhooooo yepeeee party guys.
$ School Time Friend is fine and for past one week she is inviting me to dine,but what to do as i don't get time.hehehe
$ Just yesterday got to know that some one's like me ...its nice to hear as she is just like a white bear...heheheh.
$ me trying hard for my future for germany.but GRe word list is hinder which always eat my mind.
$ Me getting senile as my PhD sucks my time.
$ I don't know got all the wings to fly but don't know the place where is should try.
$ good too see some one one not alone, as she have a cute reason from hull.
$ u afraid to see why not I am crying is that I don't have brain, but I do believe that I fooled you enough as right now I am standing in heavy rain..........
this is all for the time, see u later , till then be safe and always shine.
god bless you all....
till
bbye
Its since long time not to write here its like i was missing something from my own self....
well now the days occupied with my projects.
so as the time is short and words are too long...so I decided to put it on a rhythmic song....
$ On 13 th of Jan I came back to my home.
$ while on board got a teddy bear who called to be my friend.
$ She is the person who worry about me even more than my own mom lol.....
$ Got the job at Common wealth games 2010 delhi ( organizing committee)
$ Salary is handsome and package seems quite pretty.
$ Got to know the reality about my past....all thanks to bacha....
$ Got the post of project officer in WORLD CUP HOCKEY 2010 yhooooo yepeeee party guys.
$ School Time Friend is fine and for past one week she is inviting me to dine,but what to do as i don't get time.hehehe
$ Just yesterday got to know that some one's like me ...its nice to hear as she is just like a white bear...heheheh.
$ me trying hard for my future for germany.but GRe word list is hinder which always eat my mind.
$ Me getting senile as my PhD sucks my time.
$ I don't know got all the wings to fly but don't know the place where is should try.
$ good too see some one one not alone, as she have a cute reason from hull.
$ u afraid to see why not I am crying is that I don't have brain, but I do believe that I fooled you enough as right now I am standing in heavy rain..........
this is all for the time, see u later , till then be safe and always shine.
god bless you all....
till
bbye
A thought with in
its my first try................
mesmerizing
hii too you all , As now the days getting new taste of writing hehehe , I know I m not being very good at my words but still lets try ,,, plzzz I want the feed back from you guys too so that i can improve on my skill ........ so here i m presenting my thoughts i the form of poetry....i don’t know weather it seems like or not ,,,, so plzz beg you generosity for same........hehehe
Days are passing by like my dearest tears going to cry.
Since few days got a new taste of life,
to walk on the path which is apposite to my sight.
I surrendered with my empty hands so still,
I am guessing the reason for your pampering wands.
Asking you with my drowning eyes,
please give me a reason for my pretendence to your eyes.
Remain want to be in dark with my mesmerizing soul,
as begging for a bit of light and destined to a new foul.
Million of thoughts going across my mind,
and trying hard to detach my own soul that has not being very kind.
Begging my shadow to give me her hand,
but she also betrays me as water takes away the scribble from the sands.
Sitting in Front of God with close eyes and molded hands,
and beging to him to cease this pouring sand.
Most of time starring at watch and wish to turn back the time,
but some one dazzled my own thoughts by showing her future as prime.
Yelling with full of anger on the doves,
but why i m doing it so as I don’t have sight of loves.
In the last begging you for a mercy,
to show me my curse and release it to a new journey.
(these are my own words haan)
thanx
mesmerizing
hii too you all , As now the days getting new taste of writing hehehe , I know I m not being very good at my words but still lets try ,,, plzzz I want the feed back from you guys too so that i can improve on my skill ........ so here i m presenting my thoughts i the form of poetry....i don’t know weather it seems like or not ,,,, so plzz beg you generosity for same........hehehe
Days are passing by like my dearest tears going to cry.
Since few days got a new taste of life,
to walk on the path which is apposite to my sight.
I surrendered with my empty hands so still,
I am guessing the reason for your pampering wands.
Asking you with my drowning eyes,
please give me a reason for my pretendence to your eyes.
Remain want to be in dark with my mesmerizing soul,
as begging for a bit of light and destined to a new foul.
Million of thoughts going across my mind,
and trying hard to detach my own soul that has not being very kind.
Begging my shadow to give me her hand,
but she also betrays me as water takes away the scribble from the sands.
Sitting in Front of God with close eyes and molded hands,
and beging to him to cease this pouring sand.
Most of time starring at watch and wish to turn back the time,
but some one dazzled my own thoughts by showing her future as prime.
Yelling with full of anger on the doves,
but why i m doing it so as I don’t have sight of loves.
In the last begging you for a mercy,
to show me my curse and release it to a new journey.
(these are my own words haan)
thanx
Monday, January 4, 2010
..............I don't want to cry, plzz can you wipe it..
WHY.........................is that I am a mistake......
What to say ....................just trying hard to find a glimpse of light in all this dark world,
I am all shattered ,i came to know the real face of life .
why life always kept me in dark yet,..........what wrong i have done with life...........what wrong i have done ,GOD just tell me once, plzzz just once.....tell me why .......
I BECAME A DEVIL IN FRONT OF HER ,
IS THAT I AM ?............
YOU TELL ME GOD..........IS THAT I AM,
i hope we got all the world satisfaction for what we have done ,........
god bless you all.............thats all i can ask for you from god.......
but I am in big dilemma, , Today god has gave me all the power and seight of self destruction, i can ruin myself AND I WILL ………..the reason for this I wont REVEAL because in don't want my feeling to be insulted,…
ahhhh……..
I just want to ask you "whats my fault in all this " i s that my love was a fault or is that i my self is a fault............what ?
But I don’t know what all I have to do, as I can’t see anything, i just wish i could die........before i saw tears on her face...
Whom should I listen…………….. Will you …..Tell me god.
why peoples always betrays you , why they ditch you in your every sense........
now the days I got to know and I realized that’s you was the protagonist of every show, there are lot many realities which I have confront ate with ………………I just wish you to God bless you for your self consciousness, as now its cleared by all….
i was such dam fool who believes you blindly.may be because love is blind.
more or less what ever i have said, i am never going to do that , how can you even think off i can hurt my most precious thing..........
what ever i have spoked its all because so that i can show you the real face of hat person ..........
but now its too late, because now i am among of worst decisions of your life , you never understand me bacha.........
Isn't god should have to plan the things in such a way that everyone should get their love,
…..What to say …I am STILL deeply attach WITH SOME ONE WHO has allways kept me in dark hehehe ,hey you need valor to except such things and I am not shy to except this so I am not coward LOL.............
…….. I need some time to gain over this entire emotional trauma. uffffff.
Ahhhh …………,Some time God is Tooo ruthless, sometimes he blessed you with everything, but in the end he left you all alone with out the reason of those wishes,as he snatch away the reason of your wishes……………hehehehe isn’t it that too funny.
I cant see her in pain,because I know that you are not that strong enough to bear all this pain............oh god.
I had never be so alone , when I was all alone ,but now I am all alone while to being with every one.
I wish I could die and scream for all my tears............
.........plzzzzzzzzz aaaaaaaaaaa, some time memories pierced you deep in your heart,
IS THERE ANTONE WHO CAN HEAR ME DEEP......
Just tell me GOD WHAT WAS MY MISTAKE , is that so that I am in real LOVE..........
Thanks to this page who can hear me………….I WANT TO CRY ANNAN AAA...........PLZZZZZZZZ I AM NOT THAT STRONG TO BEAR THIS PAIN , PLZZ GOD PARDON ME.........PLZZZ LEAVE ME... PLEASE I BEG YOU.
Friday, January 1, 2010
EVER AND FOREVER...........
DASVEDANIYA.......
HI ,
Wish YOU ALL A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010,
Well what to say about this past year , As it was full of professional failures and emotional leaps and bounds , I don’t know how to evaluate last year ,perhaps it was good , As I got some of great experiences , this last year had taught me how to love someone, how to sacrifice yourself to see smile on beloved face hehehe , other than that this was the only and single most beautiful thing which had happened to me ............hhehehe I was in real love , I loved someone with all my heart and all my soul........I have usher myself in all my capacities to make someone happy , but I have failed in my worst night mares, hmmmm......I really don’t know why I have failed as ............still I don’t have any answer why I had loved her ,and ........May be the reason is I am not among of those whom she is looking for, either I am not from her world , all I can say dasvedaniya.......Miss you lot, and I will never forget you , thanks a lot for what you have done for me,AS YOU ARE THE BEST THING WHICH HAS HAPPENED TO ME,..........
Well what to say about this past year , As it was full of professional failures and emotional leaps and bounds , I don’t know how to evaluate last year ,perhaps it was good , As I got some of great experiences , this last year had taught me how to love someone, how to sacrifice yourself to see smile on beloved face hehehe , other than that this was the only and single most beautiful thing which had happened to me ............hhehehe I was in real love , I loved someone with all my heart and all my soul........I have usher myself in all my capacities to make someone happy , but I have failed in my worst night mares, hmmmm......I really don’t know why I have failed as ............still I don’t have any answer why I had loved her ,and ........May be the reason is I am not among of those whom she is looking for, either I am not from her world , all I can say dasvedaniya.......Miss you lot, and I will never forget you , thanks a lot for what you have done for me,AS YOU ARE THE BEST THING WHICH HAS HAPPENED TO ME,..........
Well I guess it’s enough I have cried and crib about my life , I don’t left with any more tears, and now it’s time to get back to my world ,and do all the work which I really want to do, I need to be laugh with all those who want to laugh with me. Hmmmm..
SO what about the NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS eeeee......ammm as I do believe that resolutions are meant to be broken,
Butttttt this time I am laurelled and embolden for my ones....haann so don’t underestimate me Guys, As most of peoples have done this mistake.....They are as follow....
1) Will surely crack the GRE and will take admission in September 2010 intake.
2) Concentrate more on my career and definitely will submit my PhD report this time.
3) Will take care of my Family and my dear friends who were always there for me in my hardest time.
4) Try to not to rely on any one.
5) SURELY NOT TO RUN BEHIND ANY ONE.
6) START PLAYING HOCKEY YAHOOOO..............I am too happy. (All thanks to my friend).
7) TRY TO FULLFILL THE DREAMS OF MINE AND MY FOLKS.
What I feel life laughs at you when you are in sorrow, and life smile with you when you are happy.I really don’t have any grudges and hard feeling with any one but I AM REALLY SORRY TO ALL THOSE WHO HAD BEEN IN SORROW BECAUSE OF ME, PLEASE PARDON ME FOR MY SINS.........
Thanks to all those who had make my 2009 full of joy and happiness.
DASVEDANIYA........................WISH YOU ALL A VERY H APPY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR 2010
THANKS TO THIS PAGE WHO CAN HEAR ME.MISSSING YOU BA...........
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