In deliemma

hiii
every one
as i told you that iam going to be regular ,while in my postings ,hehehe iam sorry that i tried my level best for the same but as usual iam sooo lazy to write my own thoughts,
now the days every thing is soo ocupied that i really dont have any words to express, but still my heart and my soul is vacant, and most interesting fact is now the days i use to have nice nap,
every day when i open my lappy to to get into my PhD work and research papers ,as soon as possible my eyelids occupied my senses into deep darkness.
but coz of some one ones again i start thinking on constructive path ,
heart and soul is ready to fire , and achieve everything by which i can assist her in her happiness,
but still how long lasting this happiness will be
as i can feel it that she is not mine ,as there is some one else in her life, but all i want is to be her smile , weather its coz of mine or any one ,
plzz god do some magic plzzz god wipe your stick in my life,
hope fully one day he will change it forever when she trully inderstand , whom she want in her life,
thnx to you all that u listen my heart with all your patients.

hii,

i am happy to get some one back on track of life.

but still in dellimma , is that she is really and trully happy.

i guess yes , as she need to be like that , as i am bit upset coz she counts me also in the number that me also like that.how can i make her understand that all harsh words are to for awake her so that she can also feel the happiness in her world. betu i never let you down , but you need to pay me back which should be in your million dollar smiles............................

but still iam happy as she is happy,

what to tell about the days , as its my first tinny step in this ruthless professional world,

so enduring all kind of politics,but thats apart the biggest thing which absorbing me is lonliness.............

as missing every one like hell .

plzzz dont leave my hand as i want u to grab me tight in ur arms.

so that no one take me away from myself.

missing every one

, i just feel like to fly to you so that again i can feel u.......as deepst part of mine........

missing you a lot.......................missing you a lot.......missing you a lot.

bbye for now........

thanx for hearing me........

A Melting Soul

hi every body ,

since last night so many thought's have came and vanished,

as its same as waves comes in the sea and vanished with in,

Isn't it my thoughts have the same tendency,

does they have any identity.

mind is killing the heart and heart killing the soul,

slowly slowly my heart is melting down in quest of his own definition,

and one day it will vanish as similar as the waves in the sea.

plzz save me from my own self, my self drowing,

plzz i want to breath a lung full of love, a mind full of thoughts,

a soul with out a pain,a eyes with out a tear , a face with laughs,

and a life with my own self

and at last a shoulder to cry on , a silence to understand my silence ,

a fingers to tangle with in my fingers,

don't know why i am saying and what i want .

bbye for now .

thnx for being there for me ,

A Burning heart

beyond the thoughts

well

at last now i have decided to be the serious buyer,

for past few weeks a lot many had happen ,some one again done the same deed.

which i had passed through,

I am bit angry this time , but still coud'nt find the expressions to express my anger or love or hatered , i really dont have any idea what it is ,

but now i know its all begin to a new end ,

long back some one told me,

you never know what the real happiness is unless you are not in love and

you never know real the pain is unless you loose it.

So Iam here to feel the pain ,

but one thing know i understand ,that love the person who love you , one sided love is just a synonym of pain thats it .

bby for now

promise you

now onwards only you can hear my heart.

thnx for every thing ........