In deliemma

hiii
every one
as i told you that iam going to be regular ,while in my postings ,hehehe iam sorry that i tried my level best for the same but as usual iam sooo lazy to write my own thoughts,
now the days every thing is soo ocupied that i really dont have any words to express, but still my heart and my soul is vacant, and most interesting fact is now the days i use to have nice nap,
every day when i open my lappy to to get into my PhD work and research papers ,as soon as possible my eyelids occupied my senses into deep darkness.
but coz of some one ones again i start thinking on constructive path ,
heart and soul is ready to fire , and achieve everything by which i can assist her in her happiness,
but still how long lasting this happiness will be
as i can feel it that she is not mine ,as there is some one else in her life, but all i want is to be her smile , weather its coz of mine or any one ,
plzz god do some magic plzzz god wipe your stick in my life,
hope fully one day he will change it forever when she trully inderstand , whom she want in her life,
thnx to you all that u listen my heart with all your patients.