Fumes of my wreked soul............

Don't have any words to express,

just feel like as ,as my home is set on fire by my own lamp.

, have you ever thought of to betray your self, iam the one who still in the darkness of his own betrayal

the days had passed when i doesn't need to wait for her words , but now things has changed like another side of coin ,now slowly- slowly we are becoming the stranger's..........

If one can ask me which is the most ruthless punishment decided by the god for a being then my answer would be.......... surely to put him in love with someone ,

As death can separate your soul in an instance ,but this betrayal take away your soul, slowly,slowly and slowly.........and every apartness give you intense pain of whole world..........

my life is just like a burnt village where u cant find any thing except the fumes of my own inert thoughts, my own inert feelings, wreckage of my own unburnt dreams...........whom i use to cherish every night and kept awaken as a being guard of them ,so that no one can steal them .......most of time suddenly get up with a fear of to thrashed them........now i am really tired god ..........plzz give me a lap..... an arms who will be surrounded and slowly give relieve to this wandering soul and i can let these dreams to be rest in peace...........

there was a time when I was really angry that why they done this to me ..........believe me i tried my best to hate .......but failed to do so......

as one is my younger bro and Another is ...........?

I am happy that they both are happy as that is all to be needed........every one got everything .........but all i want just to tell me what is truth because i don't have dreams to broken up........... slowly slowly she moving part as she had promised............i want to ask to every one what wrong i have done........so this has done to me........one betrayal has changed my all the beliefs.........one betrayal shattered my all the faiths.............i cant hate any one just rather than my self ...................plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz tell me whats there in.................this will give relief to my tired breaths ..................

i wasn't that alone when i was alone, as now become by being with you............its just like,as i sit on sea shore and asking for a drop of water who can delay my last breath..........

lot many things to write on ........but my head is aching a lot..............

All i can say I havn't done any thing wrong to u bacha..............as you are my most precious thing.....So how can i hurt my most precious thing...........some one provoke me to poke all by saying all fuming words which is unbearable to me ,,,,,,,,,,,,,bacha i know you hehehe and i know the reason of your happiness..........just pray to god that................. he will always keep you happy either he will give back from me.........i cant say that word but all i can say words ala h Hafiz

thanx to this blank page who can listen me.................